2020: The Best Year Of My Life (So Far)

That was quite possibly the most contradictory headline that has ever been written. But nonetheless, it’s true. (Although to be totally honest, I say the same thing about every year ‘cause #itonlygetsbetter).

In January of this year, my BF took me on a trip to Key West. We stayed at an incredible Airbnb with its own private beach and quick access to all of the best restaurants and sights in town. 

I had the most amazing time, and during that trip, I made a decision: this is the year where I finally create the business I know I’m meant for. 

At the time, I had no idea how I was going to get from where I was in that moment—running a business that no longer felt aligned for me—to where I wanted to be—helping people with their mindset, identity and manifestation. And I obviously had no idea what else was to come, globally. 

I just believed this was the year it was all going to shift for me. And then Corona showed up. 

Right before the quarantine started, I invested in working with a coach who triggered the fuck out of me (I see triggers as a good thing and know that means there’s something in it for me). During our time together, the whole country went into lockdown. 

A couple of my writing and editing projects got put on hold, and I had a lot less going on than I usually do. TikTok was also becoming big at this time, since so many people were at home and needing extra things to occupy their time. 

I got on TikTok and started making videos about feeling good. That’s my message to the world and what I most wanted to share with others. 

After a couple of weeks making videos, I realized something: this is the real me. 

The fun, performer, entertainer side of me that I could never figure out how to show online had finally come out. And this is what I want to do more of. 

More fun videos, more coaching and helping people with their mindset and manifesting their dream life. 

That is what I knew I was meant to be doing with my business and life. I just hadn’t been doing it. 

And then I realized, the reduction of client projects in my business and the quarantine gave me the perfect opportunity to finally do the thing I’ve wanted to do for years: be a mindset and life coach. 

I had been doing mindset and life coaching with my writing and editing clients for years, I just wasn’t owning that that’s who I am. 

This lull gave me the chance to be it for real.

To drop everything I had been doing that was no longer aligned for me, and do the work of my soul. The work that God had been calling me to for five years (and my entire life). 

I was finally ready to answer that call. 

I thought everything would happen quick and change overnight now that I made the decision, but that’s not how the physical reality works. The physical reality takes time to catch up to the energetic reality. 

This whole year, I spent my time doing massive inner work and reprogramming my old beliefs and mindset and the BS stuff I hadn’t dealt with yet. I tried things and created new offers and got more and more clarity. 

I worked with amazing coaches to continue finding that clarity and refining my offers and claiming who I am and what I am meant to do in this world. 

I also had to slowly, bit-by-bit, wind down my old business. There were a lot of client projects, programs, memberships and things still going on that had to be shifted, ended, etc. 

It took a solid 9 months of being deep in it all. There was a lot to work through and figure out. 

And what emerged is this incredible feeling of CERTAINTY. 

I am so fucking clear on who I am, on what my purpose is, on my vision, on what I want to do and be and have, on the legacy I want to leave and the ripple effect I want to send out into the world with my work. I am fully in alignment in my business in every single way. 

I beyond love and am obsessed with all of my offers and programs and clients and everything that I’m doing and how I’m doing it. 

I no longer feel trapped or stuck. I no longer worry that I’m building a business for nothing (which is how I often felt in my old business). 

I now know the mark I am here to leave on the world. I now feel complete soul certainty and inner peace that I am living my purpose. 

I’ve also finally given myself full permission to do it all my way and on my terms and to say no to anything that doesn’t feel good or light me up. (This was the hardest challenge for me, as it can be tough to say no to things that make you a lot of money, even if you don’t really want to be doing them.) 

Because of all of this, I KNOW I am positioned for a MASSIVE quantum leap in the next 12 months. And I now get to go into 2021 with total clarity in my business and focus in my life, and it’s all gonna get even better from here. #OfCourse

This all happened because I did and continue to do the real work—the inner work. 

But it also all happened because I am supported by the best of the best. So I must and want to thank all of my mentors for the direct (and indirect) support they gave me this year in creating the absolute business of my dreams and helping me to finally answer the calling of my soul, of God, to be who I always knew I was meant to be. 

Courtney Tillia —Bold Femininity helped me reconnect with my core energy and shift so many limiting beliefs and stories I had about my worth, my value, what I get to have and who I get to be in this life and this world. Without you and this program, I know I would be going into the New Year still miserable and stuck in my old business. Now I get to go into it feeling like the most fun, free and alive version of me who knows that I’m the mofo prize and that my desires are my guide and that life is meant to bend to my will. This or something better ALWAYS. 

Jenna Faith —we go way, way back and you’ve seen me through so many iterations of who I am and what I do in my business. You always believed in me, even at the times when I didn’t see it for myself. You have always gone above and beyond for me, and I appreciate you more than you will ever know.

Nick Tillia —the words you speak pierce my soul and you always say exactly what I need to hear exactly when I need to hear it. Thank you for all that you do and all that you are. 

Katrina Ruth —though we didn’t work together 1-1 this year, I was, of course, in several of your workshops and group programs. But what helped me even more was going back and re-accessing and completing old programs of yours that I bought and never finished. I just continued to do what you’ve taught me since you entered my world in 2016, which is follow the soul nudges and back yourself. It took me a long time to finally do that fully, but now that I am, I can’t imagine doing it any other way ever again. 

Rebecca Ives —Sexy and I Know It was a legit game-changer. It helped me get super clear on where I was limiting my desires, and on what I really want for my life: a lifestyle where every day feels like I’m on vacation. Up to and including living on the water, which is my goal for 2021 and I know it’s already done. #VacationVibes 

THANK YOU to all of you for being who you are and showing up in the world the way you do, and holding space and being a stand for other people, like me, to do the same. 

It really does take a village, and I’m so grateful to have all of you in mine. 

This year has been a wild friggin’ ride and I am so ready and excited for what’s to come.

Happy New Year!! 

Now let’s celebrate the hell out of what’s left of  2020. ‘Cause it’s all worth celebrating, even the seemingly “bad” stuff. 

Dream life or bust,