This was my relationship story for most of my life: I don’t get to have the guy I really want.
It started in fifth grade. I had a huge crush on this guy in my class, but he didn’t like me back. My 10-year-old self made that mean I wasn’t good enough or worthy of having the guy I want.
That continued to be my story, all through middle school, high school, college, and then into my early 20s.
Anytime I liked or had a crush on a guy, he never felt the same way. Or, if he did, it was always temporary and then he would ditch me for someone else.
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