Today, I Woke Up With These Words On My Heart

A phrase I have always hated is “God-fearing.”

People wear this phrase like a badge of honor. I know, because I used to do the same thing. 

But “God-fearing” was just a limiting belief given to me by a religion I no longer subscribe to. 

The truth is, there is no reason to fear God. 

God is love. God is inside of you. God is co-creating your life with you. 

I am a divine child of God. And so are you.

I no longer fear God. 

I believe in God. I trust God. I have faith in God. I walk with God. I confide in God. I have a relationship with God. 

I have submitted to God’s will for my life. 

“Submitting to God’s will” is another phrase that people get confused. And that also creates more fear. 

Fear that there’s an entity outside of yourself trying to make you do things you don’t want to do. But that’s just a misperception. 

You don’t have to give up your dreams and desires in order to submit to God’s will. God’s will isn’t something in opposition to what you want for yourself. 

God wants what you want. 

Your dreams and desires are from the divine. Given to you by God. 

Submitting to God’s will actually means giving up all of the things you think you should be doing, should be being, or should be wanting, and instead doing, being and wanting what you actually feel called to. 

That’s a big difference. 

So often we spend our lives trying to do things or make things happen that we don’t really and truly in our heart of hearts want. We just think we should be doing it or wanting it or being it because we were taught to or because other people are. 

For almost a decade of my life, I thought I should be a coach over a creative. 

Coaches make money. Coaches help people. Coaching is a legit career.

Coaching has a purpose. 

I couldn’t fathom that God would make my purpose being a creative. 

I didn’t see how that was even possible. 

I saw that dream, that desire—to be a storyteller, write books, and turn those books into movies—as selfish, self-indulgent, ridiculous. 

So I forced myself to want something I didn’t actually want. I forced myself to be someone I’m actually not. 

Yes, I’m damn good at coaching. Yes, my coaching got people results. Yes, my coaching changed people’s lives. 

But that’s not ever how I was meant to do those things. 

I was living outside of God’s—and my—will for my life. Shoulding myself into a life I didn’t actually want. 

I prayed about it constantly. 

Constantly asking God to guide me. To show me the truth of who I was meant to be. To give me clarity on my actual purpose on this planet. 

And what I was shown over and over and over again had everything to do with helping people and changing lives. 

But it had nothing to do with coaching. Coaching was always meant to be the after-effect of me living out my true purpose. 

I had been putting the cart way before the horse. 

So after being shown my actual purpose—being a storyteller, and turning those stories into books and movies—so many times it became impossible not to believe, I finally decided to submit to it. 

I finally decided to let go of all the shoulds and submit to the thing it has always been about for me. To the vision I have always had inside of me. The one I saw since I was 11 years old. 

Not the vision or purpose I’d been trying to force on myself out of fear that I couldn’t do, be or have the life I truly wanted. But the actual vision God gave me for my life. 

That’s what it means to submit to God’s will. And there’s absolutely nothing to fear in that. 

Life works better with God in the driver’s seat. 

Because God knows you better than you know yourself. You were created by God and in the likeness of God. 

God wants to give you a life way beyond your wildest dreams. 

But you have to let God do that for you. Otherwise your free will stops it from happening. 

You have to be willing. You have to agree with it. You have to allow it.

And on the day you finally decide to, that’s when everything changes.

Dream life or bust,

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